Starless Night

Starless sky, cloudy night
Light breeze blew through my hair
I caught the smell of newly cut grass
Crickets whispering in my ear
While I searching for the slightest glimpse of the full moon

Doctors and dentist

Just went to see a doctor this afternoon.... sore throat problem for 2 weeks.... sigh....
then there's some high blood pressure, just a bit... gonna check it next week again...
at least confirm no diabetes....

There's more, my tooth just broke a few days ago... got some cavity yikes.... hate it.... made my mouth and tongue feel weird...  planning to see a dentist probably after chinese new year???


Finally settled some problems and I guess I'm on diet watch now..... haiz.....

On the bright sight, I lost some weight since I last weight myself... 2~3kg... that's quite a lot for me...... YEAH!!!! but I wonder if I could maintain or reduce some more weight....  T_T

Honesty

People say honesty are good.

My question, does honesty includes telling white lies?
People tell white lies to make others feel better or from suffering from the truth.
It's something with the mean of good.
There are others who said that better truth than white lies.
Truth could be hurtful, but white lies sometimes hurts much more
even worse, it could cause further suffering to others.

I think, there are no good lie or bad lie
there's just what the lie are all about and what it's used for
People lie to protect and to live, either in a bad way or good way.


and there are questions on morale of cheat.


but I too, have questions on morale.

Perhaps I am wrong...

Is it wrong to seek the meaning of existence rather than being down to earth and making a life
What I'm pondering now stirred me upside down from time to time
I am not denying that I'm not doing what I'm suppose to do
but I'm merely looking out for something
something I had not grasp

Should I forget what I'm seeking and push myself into making a living,
so that I could get what I desired?
I have desires and wants, but I'm not sure about needs
I most probably won't get what I had seek, but should I just abandon it just for my desire?
I lack of ability on many things to reach for my desires

I'm avoiding things that could mess up my mind even more
but there are limitation of the avoidance.